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Wed, Mar. 30th, 2005, 04:23 pm
R.I.P.

Well, I think this journal has officially died. This is the funeral. It was a good journal, although short lived. It will be missed. If anyone is actually still reading this, then come on over to my new journal, metal_eyes.

R.I.P., eljin

Mon, Oct. 25th, 2004, 12:23 am
...

so... yeah... I hate this feeling... feeling like there's no point, there's no reason... no hope... I feel like I always have to be serious. I can't just forget about what people are going to think of me, and just have fun. I can't just be myself... I don't want to do anything... I've become so critical, so full of myself... I feel like I'm better than them... I don't like this feeling... I'm a spiritual corpse. I think that's it. I think I'm killing myself spiritually, and I can feel it. God, please help me.

Sun, Sep. 26th, 2004, 05:11 pm



You Know You're From Pennsylvania When...


You've never referred to Philadelphia as anything but "Philly." And New
Jersey has always been "Jersey."

You refer to Pennsylvania as "PA."

"You guys" is a perfectly acceptable reference to a group of men & women.

You know how to respond to the question "Djeetyet?" (Didyoueatyet?)

You learned to pronounce Bryn Mawr, Wilkes-Barre, Schuylkill, Bala Cynwyd, Duquesne, New Tripoli, Tunkhannock, Punxsutawney, Tamaqua, Susquehanna, Allegheny, and Monongahela.

You know what a "Mummer" is, and are disappointed if you can't catch at least highlights of the parade.

The first day of buck and the first day of doe season are school holidays.

You can use the phrase "fire hall wedding reception" and not even bat an eye.

You can't go to a wedding without hearing the "Chicken Dance," at least one Polka and either an Italian song (sung in Italian,) or "Hava Nagila."

At least 5 people on your block have electric "candles" in all or most of their windows all year long.

You know what a "Hex sign" is.

You know what a "State Store" is, and your out of state friends find it incredulous that you can't purchase liquor at the mini-mart.

You own only three condiments "A-1, Heinz 57 and Heinz ketchup".

Words like "hoagie", "crick", "chipped ham", "sticky buns", "shoo-fly pie", "pierogies" and "pocketbook" actually mean something to you.

You can eat cold pizza (even for breakfast) and know others who do the same.

You know several places to purchase or that serve Scrapple, Summer Sausage (Lebanon Bologna), and Hot Bacon Dressing.

One of the highlights of your life was a field trip to Penn's Cave and Horseshoe curve.

You know exactly what to do when your mother tells you to "red up" your room.

You know the time and location of every "wing night" in a 20 mile radius.

You don't think people from Philly or Pittsburgh talk funny.

You don't understand all the hype about Rolling Rock beer; You've been drinking it for years even though Iron City is better.

You consider an exotic vacation to be a trip to Ocean City, Virginia Beach, or Myrtle Beach.

Words like "hoagie", "chipped ham", and "pop" actually mean something to you.

You think very little of an Amish buggy on the road.

You learned long ago how to "step carefully" around the buggy tie-ups in the supermarket parking lot.

You can go 2 weeks in winter without sunshine and think this is normal.

You know that Blue Ball, Intercourse, Climax, Bird-in-Hand, Virginville, Paradise, Mars, and Slippery Rock are all PA towns.

There is no such thing as a "Philly Cheesesteak". It's just called a "Cheesesteak."

You know that Eucre is a card game and not a form of vomiting.

You not only have heard of Birch Beer, but you know that it comes in several colors: Red, Blue, White, Brown, Gold.

You know what REAL potpie is.

You ask the waitress for "dippy eggs" for breakfast.

Your turkey has "filling," not "stuffing," and most certainly, NOT "dressing."

You consider Pittsburgh to be "out west," and you know the fastest way to Philly is the Turnpike.

When it snows, they put cinders on the roads instead of sand.

Know that Yuengling is pronounced "Ying-ling," and believe that it really is a premium beer

You know that a green pepper is not a pepper at all but a "mango".

You have an uncontrollable urge to buy bread and milk when you hear the word "snow."

You live within two miles of a plant that makes potato chips, corn chips, pretzels, candy, or ice cream, or that packages turkeys, beans, or bologna.

You can stop along the road to buy fruits, vegetables, or crafts on the "honor system."

You know what REAL pot pie is.

YOUR turkey has "filling," not "stuffing," and most certainly, NOT "dressing."

You know that chicken corn soup from a fire house is the most nearly perfect food on earth.

You say things like, "Outen the lights," "I'm calling off today," and "They're calling for snow."

You've heard of distelfinks and hex signs.

You only buy your beer and soda by the case.

You think the roads in any other state are smooth.

You know the Penn State cheer, and although you've never attended Penn State, you are a most obnoxious Penn State fan.

Hearing horses clopping down a paved street doesn't bring you to the window to see what's going on outside.

You never see any Confederate Flags, except on the Gettysburg Battlefield.

You prefer Hershey's Chocolate to Godiva.

School closings due to snow take the radio stations a half an hour to finish, because just about every town has its own school district.

You have the Rolling Rock bottle memorized: "From the glass lined tanks of Old Latrobe, we tender this premium beer for your enjoyment. . . . "

Elect pro-life Democrats and pro-choice Republicans for Governor

Frequently go "with," e.g., "You going to the market? Mind if I come with?"

Refer to something as "a whole nother," e.g., "That's a whole nother issue."

You REALLY HATE antiquers. On Sunday mornings you would scream "Go back to Jersey!" at least once on the way to church.

When you were a kid and somebody really pissed you off, you said, "I'm gonna deck you!"

You know the expression, "Hey naw! Watchya dewin'?"

You know where to buy "Opera Fudge" and that it has absolutely no connection to the Opera.

The only Jewish people that you've ever met have been from New York or New Jersey.

You love the Phillies (unless they stink) in which case you love the Orioles (unless they stink) in which case
you solemnly swear that you've never even liked the Phillies or the Orioles, but have always been a Penn State fan.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Pennsylvania.




Tue, Sep. 21st, 2004, 01:59 am
Depression

I've been thinking about something somebody said the other day, something that really made me think. This person was asking for advice on a personal problem. The problem was depression. Not just being depressed, but enjoying it. Getting used to the feeling, and getting some sort of satisfaction out of it. I'd never thought about it before, but I do that. I've become addicted to it. To the self-pity, to beating myself up. I feel "cool" being the moody, depressed, angry-at-life teenager... except I have nothing to be angry about. I have an amazing life. I need to stop doing this somehow. It's not a good thing. The time I spend telling myself how stupid I am, I could actually be doing something productive and helpful. When I get depressed I isolate myself. I push people away from me. Even though all I want at the moment is people... or rather, I want people to try to comfort me. I want people to try to make me feel better. I don't want them to actually make me feel better, just to try. It's not a good feeling, but it's a very familiar feeling, and sometimes I actually resent people trying to make me come out of it, to make me stop focusing on myself.

Well, no more. I'm sure I'll still get depressed, but I'm not going to enjoy it.

Sat, Sep. 18th, 2004, 07:11 pm
Stuff...

I love God.

How many people really think about what this means when they say it? When you say it, do you mean, God made me happy. Isn't that kind of selfish? If you were to say "I love my mother" and then do nothing, I think people would question your statement. Love is a dynamic thing. Love for a person means wanting that person to be happy. If you truly love God, that means you want to make God happy. You are willing to give up your selfish wants to add to His joy. How do we know how to make God happy? By reading His word, and doing what it teaches. This is why we should do what is right, not because from fear of Hell or hope of Heaven. We should do it because God loves each of us infinitely, and if we love Him in return, we will do what He asks.

We should always consider our words before we use them, especially in something as important as God.

I love God.

Thu, Aug. 26th, 2004, 04:29 pm
IT'S BLUE!

ETHAN HAS BLUE HAIR!

Well, blue tips. Bleached, spiky hair with blue tips. It looks pretty cool in my opinion.

Okey, update time.

I've been home from the Lake since Sunday. I've been hanging out with Allexx and other people. On Tuesday I went to see "without a paddle" with Allexx, Meghan, and John. The movie itself sucked. It was boring and not very funny. Pretty much, it was just stupid. On the bright side, it wasn't any worse than I was expecting it to be. And the car ride there and back was really fun.

Other than that, I've just been preparing for college. I got some shots yesterday, and filled out some "vehicle registration" thing so I can park in the dorm parking lot.

I can't believe classes start in less than a week! I'm not ready yet! I need more summer!

Oh, Coleman left yesterday. It's weird to think that I won't see him until Thanksgiving. This also means that both my parents are gone until friday night. FREEDOM! And I get Coleman's convertible, since he's not taking it with him. It's got a sweet CD player/radio, and most importantly, it gets about a billion times better mileage than the car I've been driving.

Well, time for Ethan to go find something to eat. He is very hungry. Peace out, y'all.

VIS TIBI ADSIT

Mon, Aug. 23rd, 2004, 11:57 pm
What do you think?

I haven't updated this in a while, and this won't be a real update either. I will get around to it pretty soon.

Okay, here's the deal: Ethan is getting his hair bleached with blue tips. However, he's not sure what style to get. Please give him some suggestions of what you think would look good.

Tue, Aug. 3rd, 2004, 02:55 am

Bold the ones you've seen all the way through, underline the ones you own, italicize the ones you've seen part of. Then add 3 of your own and post it in your LJ.

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King

11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead (the remake)
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job (the remake)
25. Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Safety of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen (original version)
47. Fierce Creatures
48. Dude, Where's My Car
49. Ladyhawke
50. Ghostbusters
51. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
52. Back to the Future

53. An Affair To Remember
54. Somewhere In Time
55. North By Northwest
56. Moulin Rouge
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
58. The Wizard of Oz

59. Zoolander
60. A Walk to Remember
61. Chicago
62. Vanilla Sky
63. The Sweetest Thing
64. Don't Tell Mom the Babysitters Dead
65. The Nightmare Before Christmas
66. Chasing Amy
67. Edward Scissorhands
68. Adventures of Priscilla: Queen of the Desert
69. Muriel's Wedding
70. Croupier
71. Blade Runner
72. Cruel Intentions
73. Ocean's Eleven (remake)
74. Magnolia
75. Fight Club
76. Beauty and The Beast
77. Much Ado About Nothing
78. Dirty Dancing
79. Gladiator
80. Ever After
81. Braveheart
82. What Lies Beneath
83. Regarding Henry
84. The Dark Crystal
85. Star Wars
86 The Birds
87. Beaches
88. Cujo
89. Maid In Manhattan
90. Labyrinth
91. Thoroughly Modern Millie
92. His Girl Friday
93. Chocolat
94. Independence Day
95. Singing in the Rain
96. Big Fish
97. The Thomas Crown Affair [both versions]
98. The Matrix
99. Stargate
100. A Hard Day's Night
101. About A Boy
102. Jurassic Park
103. Life of Brian
104. Dune
105. Event Horizon
106. Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels
107. Dead Fire
108. The Neverending Story
109. Resident Evil
110. Laura Croft: Tomb Raider
111. Pure Country
112. The Evil Dead
113. The Stand
114. Head
115. Shoujo Kakumei Utena: ADOLESCENCE Mokushiroku
116. The Ghost Goes Gear
117. Perfect Blue
118. Bring It On
119. Cowboy Bebop: Knockin' on Heaven's Door
120. Ghost World
121. UHF
122. The Royal Tenenbaums
123. Ichi the Killer
124. Lady Snowblood
125. Bubba Ho-Tep
126. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
127. Wet Hot American Summer*
128. Snatch
129. American Beauty
130. High Fidelity
131. Pi

132. Say Anything
133. Fargo
134. Pulp Fiction
135. Suburbia
136. Hedwig and the Angry Inch
137. The Dangerous Lives of Altar Boys
138. That Thing you Do
139. Memento
140. The Breakfast Club
 
141. Bottle Rocket
142. Spiderman
143. Amelie

Sat, Jul. 24th, 2004, 01:35 am
Epiphany

wow, long time, no update. oh well.

I was just thinking recently about society, and the values that it tells us we should have. I realized that at the academy they tell us things like "sex before marriage is wrong, and society is trying to tell you otherwise". Now, to a certain extent, this is true. There are parts of our culture that are telling us that. So we, being good little new churchies, say "no that's wrong" and Look! We just resisted society. However, there is a large enough part of our society that is opposed to sex before marriage, that we are at least encouraged to question it. To think about whether it's really right or wrong. In resisting things like this, we are only resisting the most obvious ploys. What we really need to question are the things we believe so deeply we would never think to question them.

An example of this is racism. In today's culture (at least the one I grew up in) we never even question the idea that racism is wrong. Now, I actually do believe that racism is wrong, but I'm just trying to find an example of an unquestioned belief. Were does this belief come from? It's obviously not "human decency" because less than 200 years ago, slavery was a huge industry in the U.S. It was an issue that people had to actually think about, to try to come to their own conclusion.

With the "sex before marriage" issue, if you stand against it, there will be a great number of people who will support you, even if others mock you. However, there are others stances that almost everyone will disagree with you on (or maybe not... maybe that's just me being paranoid). It's late, and I can't think of any really good examples, and all of this makes much more sense in my head than it does writeen down.

Sat, Jul. 10th, 2004, 02:48 pm
Finally

I got accepted to BACON! YAY! Not that I was really worried about it, but thanks to Mr. Fuck-tard, my application did not get finished until recently. This means that I have a very short amount of time to get prepared. I have to somehow get a doctor appointment before school starts, and I know that our doctor is very busy. Fortunately, I got the dorm stuff in time, so I can get all that junk taken care of.

In other news, Liz and Erica are both in town, and hopefully we will have some time to hang out. Tonight I get to go to a big Glenn family gathering, with all my cool crazy cousins. (How's that for alliteration, Erica)

Also, to anyone who has read Ender's Game: Read the Alvin Maker series (it starts with Seventh Son)

To anyone who has not read Ender's Game: Read Ender's Game, then read the Alvin Maker series.

I am currently on the third book right now... I started the first one 2 days ago. I don't remember the last time I was this drawn or interested by a book. Orson Scott Card is a genius.

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