so... yeah... I hate this feeling... feeling like there's no point, there's no reason... no hope... I feel like I always have to be serious. I can't just forget about what people are going to think of me, and just have fun. I can't just be myself... I don't want to do
anything... I've become so critical, so full of myself... I feel like I'm better than them... I don't like this feeling... I'm a spiritual corpse. I think that's it. I think I'm killing myself spiritually, and I can feel it. God, please help me.